Aunt Megan. I like that :)

Hola!

Well it is official: I am an AUNT! Evia Kay Van Wyk was born Sunday night at almost midnight at 7.0 pounds. Everything went smoothly in the birth and mom and baby are happy and well :)

Aunt Megan on the other hand…well, she’s quite bummed to be literally worlds away right now. I felt so homesick last night—more so than I had in weeks. I called my mom, only to discover that she was holding Evia at that moment. I am super happy to be an aunt, but I’m so incredibly sad to be here for 3 ½ more weeks. This just makes me want to be done and go back. I was already getting somewhat restless. I had been waiting for this internship: knowing that God wanted to show me things on this internship. Now my internship is almost done, so I’m getting restless to just get back home.

I know that God knows what I need and what I need to see and learn still, but I’m struggling to live here in the moment. Please pray that God would give me the grace I need to face each day. I want to focus on living today and not looking ahead to the future. I want to focus on being here and being present. I want to live this experience to the fullest and have no regrets. Please pray that God gives me the grace to do this.

Yesterday was a good day with my internship, and I had some good conversations. When I say “good conversations” I really mean extremely difficult conversations that are good for me. In the afternoon we had a meeting of about 20 people who work for Christ for the City (the organization that I’m techinically partnered with right now). I got the chance to talk 2 different people who work for Christ for the City, and those conversations were hard because I just continue to learn more and more about myself on this internship. It’s wonderful that God is showing me different things about myself. The problem is that I dont’ like what I’m finding. This makes for some difficult wrestling matches with God. Each day I’m learning something new about myself, yet I’m finding very few solutions.

This means that I could really use extra prayers right now. Even though I’m getting to the end of the semester, that does not mean that the challenges are easier. Not at all. Right now, I really sincerely pray that God transforms my life. I pray that he fills me with his spirit, and I pray that he would allow me to feel his presence in my life.

Today is a bit different because I do not go to La Carpio. They have a leaders retreat, so I have the day off. My mom just left for a class that she is taking, so I have the morning alone to journal, read my Bible, and spend time with God. I need this time, and I truly pray that God uses this time to encourage me as I feel in desparate need of encouragement.